Not a Poem

I know you're here, I know you'll always be,
No matter how many wings you'll need to show your smile.
I hope you know I'm there, I'll always be,
No matter how many tears I need to show my smile.

I felt you've always been here, I felt your love with every instance,
No matter how many miles divided us.
I hope you know I've always been there, I hope you felt my love with every instance,
No matter how seldom I would hold your hand.

I need to write a story, I need to write some lines,
To make sure you can hear me, that you can see my heart.
Maybe if I screamed, your big brown eyes would open,
And gain the strength they need to look ahead.

I just want to be next to you, I want to caress your face,
To thank you and to tell you how deeply sorry I am.
Forgive me for not being there, for always leaving you behind,
For telling you so many childish things when I was, it's true, just a child.

Forgive me for not having told you enough times how I felt,
For not knowing how to show you what you mean to me.
Forgive me for not being able to write better than this,
And for just feeling lost.