It's All Good

Had a good day yesterday. Work went well, met some very nice people, new students. I'm starting to feel older, but not in a bad way; I'm already in my third year and I got to learn one or two things about student life, even if I don't get too involved in it :). It's so nice to be talking to "freshmen", to learn about how they embrace this experience. After work I had lunch-dinner, whatever you want to call it, with two colleagues of mine. Spent some time catching up, silly things, serious things... that doesn't matter so much. It just takes your mind off things you are confronted with, things you cannot accept... it takes your mind off life, if that's possible.
I don't feel like doing anything these days... or, maybe, I would like to break free, to run, to go where my heart is right now. Since I can't do that, I'm kind of trying to isolate myself... thing is, that doesn't work either; can't resist the temptation of talking to friends/ people I got to know, can't help but answer the phone and call others myself, go out etc. This is the healthy way to deal with it all, I know, but I'm sick of doing things I should be doing, I just want to do what i feel like, escape the harness and ruuuun!!!! How do I feel right now? Well... I refuse to be a burden, except to myself... I can take it. Micul doesn't deserve to see me sad, nobody needs that. He knows what's going on on the inside, and that's already too much. When I feel that it's too much, I come and write here, this is safe.
We have some plans for the next weeks... weekends, mainly. School starts on Tuesday... this vacation went by so fast! Next week my micul is on vacation, as well, so we'll leave... don't care where, I just want to leave each and every day... I don't really want to com back, that's the thing. A good friend of ours is coming to Canada, Toronto, more exactly, sometime in September, and we'll "run" to see him... it's been 3 years :). Then we are invited to a wine tasting, or whatever it's called. LOL!!! They found the right person to invite for that. I was telling my husband: "It's really great, but I'm sure I'll be the youngest one, again". "Probably, but everyone will be speaking English" :). Do micul and I speak the same language or what?
I'll use a quote from "Love Actually", a movie I adore: "Enough. Enough now".