Honesty

I have the feeling this entry will not make much sense, but I just need to write the thoughts that cross my mind, without caring about logic or depth.
Weird - wired... no other two words could better describe the way I feel right now. This weekend's been very different from the other ones. I spent most of my time chatting with... friends. I can allow myself to use that word now... I almost wrote "I hope it's a good decision", but I'll just replace "hope" with "know". It makes me stronger, I suppose. Omg, this entry doesn't make any sense! Micul meu was amazing, I would've kicked myself out a long time ago. He's just micul meu, I don't even know what words to use... guess there's no need for words anymore :). These "details" show me how much he... How about me? Do I show it enough? I hope he feels it... maybe that's my mistake, I always assume that people know. Why would they? How could they? OK, micul knows me, he senses, but others? Weird - wired... it makes no sense... and yet... I'm mad... I'm happy... no, I'm ok... I don't know, right now. Stupid... what am I writing about? This blog was a good idea... my thoughts. I've never written like this... why do I keep thinking about the way I write? Is form so important? He, he! Am I worried about the simplicity of my thoughts? Why should I even answer? So many questions... I don't have a lot of answers. I'm listening to these two songs... they've become part of me... I need them for a while, they help me breathe... and make me sad at the same time. I feel so close... and yet afraid. Why? I hate this question. I'm writing in English... strange, I was sure I would use Romanian to express my thoughts... that's good, that's good. I really enjoy writing like this. I'm being very honest and I feel at ease. I feel guilty... I don't want to be mean... I don't know how to react... I can't lie, but how I love hiding! I just assume that people know... stupid, again. Ha! I really enjoy using this word, don't I? :( Well... I don't know how to write it... heck, I don't know how to think it... not good, not good... and now... I said I would write everything that crosses my mind... so I don't want to let it in? Hellooo... My mind is a blur... I'm looking for doors to escape... stay focused... it's your blog, it's your right, it's you... yeah, it's me, and I'm crazy :))))!!! He, he, I miss my funny faces... I could surely use them. Shakespeare... I'm going, I'm going... should I post this? Mumbling... so? If I read this tomorrow, I'll have no idea what it means... funny! Ok, come on... I feel great... why is it such a big deal? So pathetic... hey, it's me! Going out next weekend... for sure. I missed this feeling... secure... no secrets... even though nothing needs to be said. I hope it's true... University, life... nothing helped. Support... reminds me of NY... I missed this. There's two dialogues... indeed. Special, no doubt. But there's one... ha, ha, I'm saying to myself that I should capitalize that "one"! Nope. I don't want to. That's enough, I know it :). Thank you! Without knowing, I missed it. I am richer now... hope I can do the same. There's a kite! No, there really is a kite! Don't like big words... maybe this makes sense, even if it doesn't look like it.
My thoughts... honestly.